my horoscope on friendster for today says...
Capricorn
Distractions abound today, so it will be a struggle to keep your eye on the ball.
although i dont believe in astrology, it's purely coincidental that today i was rather distracted in whatever i was doing - well ok, not everything.
ive been REALLY irritated during chem lecture because i just couldnt and still cant understand what those two lecturers rattled on about. plus, the topics just seemed SO mundane yet it was said to be the "easiest topic to score". anyways, this is not a new story la. ive put up with that for almost a year now, so it doesnt matter. BUT what matters is that we (farah, mala and i) are surrounded by NOISY people who are obviously smart already since they can afford to be noisy. thus, with those distraction and my failure to comprehend the lecturer, i too started talking. it's just SOOO sickening! and i end up losing out MORE! it's just not fair! some people dont even attend lectures and can score higher marks than those who attend all lessons. irritating!
lately, so many things seem to be dreadful! i dreaded going for guitar but it turned out fine eventually... now i dread going for chem and math lectures every single day because these eyes of mine keep shutting down! what's the point of going for lectures?! oh man.. this guilt is overbearing. why cant i pay full attention?!
gah.
i'm very sleepy now - as usual.
bye
Blogged @ 10:01:00 PM
im soooo annoyed!
i just dont feel like doing anything.
i dont wanna study or do homework or do anything for that matter.
i just feel like sleeping right now.
no moooooooood.
but if i were to follow my mood all the time, then nothing will be done.
no one seems to look forward to the formal dressing day.
fine, then i dont look forward to it now.
it's funny how everyone SEEMED to be so excited last year.
sigh. aiya, actually i also dunno what to wear.
and NO WAY am i gonna go buy court shoes.
i already bought so many shoes this yr. crazy lar.
ok not really. but A LOT to my parents' eyes who dont indulge in footwear and clothes at every expense.
gahh..
have to do econs la.
so irritating!
like wth, redo promo essay.
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bye la!
Blogged @ 9:18:00 PM
aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
im so freakin bored la.
i feel like i havent been in school for AGES when it's only been 2.5 days only.
staying at home these days make me LAZY.
the more naggings i get, the lazier i get.
i dont mean to be sooo stubborn but.. OH I GEDDIT. the 'P' is coming soooon.
omgsshshshiwehjhdbfkj SOO irritated!
i think the new maid(after so long) is coming some time this week.
gahh why cant i have a butler or smth.
or why cant i have my old tante lilis back?
oh! maybe cos she's married and has a son to look after now!
who freakin cares about serving us right?
and maids are so expensive. as much as i dont want my mom to fork out money on the maid's salary PLUS the levy(however u spell it), i do like having maids around sometimes despite the incessant naggings from my grandmother. having a maid around would mean tt my grandmother doesnt have to do a lot of work(though i think she still would), my clothes can be neatly pressed without me having to hide them from my grandmother just in case she irons them!
sigh. thing is, my grandmother and housework are inseparable. i think it's like an in-built thing since young? so she cant bear to draw herself away from doing chores? it's not that i dont love her or dont care for her. i feel bleedin guilty for not being as great as girls "those days". i dont cook, i dont wash the toilet, i dont wash my own clothes (well only sometimes) and i dont even iron my own clothes!
JUST WHAT KIND OF ANAK DARA AM I?!
gahh maybe i was pampered too much. OR MAYBE hehe.. im just looking at my negative side.. like what the adults always do at home. it SEEMS to me that they only rake up the bad points. then again, i am also looking at the negative point of view. maybe i dont realise it when they're praising me or smth. bahh whatever. i'll be in tip-top condition in time for me to have my own family. by the time im married, i WILL be a pro chef, SUPERmaid and everything else, just like everyone else's mom. hopefully.
in conclusion, it's a beneficial thing living with my grandmother even though my ear drums keep beating from the never-ending lectures from A to Z and back to A and to Z again (you get the point). i learnt so many values from her. i also got to know her love stories. and the hardlife she faced. (it seems as if everyone those days faces hardship - like inevitably or smth).. i know she hates it when parents let their toddlers run about when they go to pple's house, she thinks malay pple should speak malay, she thinks anak dara shouldnt fart loudly, she knows when it's going to rain, she knows how to make me feel guilty. Putting those aside, she can make cute jokes, she dances occassionally despite her gaut, she cooks well, she's been really patient with all of us, she's very hardworking, she knows a lot of pantuns, and many many more.
Above all that, i still love her very much because you know what? when i become a grandmother one day, i might be a carbon copy of her personality. so better not talk so much now. only difference.. maybe i wouldnt recall experiencing hardship, i know how to use the computer and handphone and i can speak better english. haha.
oh gosh i didnt know i ranted so much.
anyhows, Nenek, i LOVE you no matter what you do and I'm sorry for being such a lazy bum. (:
(the lady on the left (: )
Blogged @ 9:03:00 PM
i feel sad. ):
maybe i shouldnt mention it here but i cant help it!
i just dont feel right..
i mean, it may not be my fault, but it may also be my fault too you see..
LPPV and SFA
you guys have been part of my life.
imagine life without you people this yr, the year would have been wayyy different. like hey! we've been through PW together and i never realised how much i appreciate the 5 of us being together until OP. gosh those memories. i wish you people all the best, stay strong and thanks for being part of my life. oh yea, im very sorry if i was ever mean to any of you.
sigh i think i'm tearing already.
Blogged @ 3:13:00 PM
Praises to Allah!
:D
I'm truly thankful and i vow to work extremely hard for next year!
gosh, it's not that i can help being over-emotional.
my grandmother made a fuss over me crying because i accidentally told her that i cried even before the results. my mom was defending me so phew! the difference in perspectives between the older generation and the younger is really really different huh? and the middle generation so poor thing, have to try to please both the generations. my grandmother said she doesn't see the need of me crying, while here i was fending for myself saying that emotions are hard to control and that it shouldn't be held back or else i'd go mental. so my granny gave in. maybe she saw the logic. hehe. anyways, crappy story aside.. i'm just really glad and relieved! and congrats to all my friends as well! though well, yeah some are not as blessed as the rest, i'm sure there's a reason and blessing to every mishaps. what we dont get now, we may get later, dont u think? ;)
yayy!
k im very contented! ;)
Blogged @ 8:56:00 PM
i am blessed with so many good food today that i swear my stomach is seriously 4months pregnant with fats!!!
woke up for morning prayers and then bathed to go to the MARKET at Chongpang with my mom. ate at MACDONALDS. (: went home and got ready to meet the yj pple to go to Cikgu Noraidah's house.
we ate BRIYANI rice there! omg damn nice lar. then.. one incident happened. a house lizard dropped on farah for the second time this year! hahahahah. so funny la. we also played foosball like mad people!



rushed home, then went to hayati's house with my mom! ate MEE GORENG and CHIX WINGS. :D and the blue drink! hahahah. then hayati ah, she salam-ed me and KISSED MY HAND! hahahahah. k all the best for ur exams k darling! oh and see u tmrw! lol
went to causeway point later on to accompany my granny buy present for my mom. ate at SANUR restaurant.
so that was how i got 4 months pregnant.
Blogged @ 10:20:00 PM

omgggggggg soooo nice ah. i WANT! saw it on ebay. too bad they dont ship to singapore. ughh.
i need a new bag! i found an excuse to get a new one already!! the zip on my current bag isnt working so well anymore. PLUS, ive used it long enough to make the cost worth it - because i remember what cikgu cheah said about girls' tendency to waste money on expensive things which they dont really use on a regular basis. and he said his $__ shirt is worth is considering the number of times he used it. so let's say a 40bucks shirt.. you used it 40 times. so that's like $1.00 per use. the expensive price doesnt seem so expensive anymore, does it?! HENCE, my bag is worth it since ive been using it since march or smth - which makes it more than a hundred days, therefore, it's only a few cents worth per use. get it?
yupp! now time for a new bag!!! i'll go bag hunting sooon. oh and shoes too!
but then again... my bag can still be used. so why waste money and spend on something i dont really need? sigh. so i guess i'll have to think twice.
ahh headache la.
monday = RESULTS.
:s
Blogged @ 4:42:00 PM